Tiny Hand

2012/07/30

The "Kübler-Ross moments" of my life...

... always appear before exams.

The time has come. Again. Students are tested on stuff they don't care about and what they will never ever really need in their life. Recently, I checked my university account and found out that I had an A+ in a seminar called "Aural-Oral". All jokes aside (>>haha, Max is good when it comes to oral stuff<<) - It was like a revelation. This NEVER happened to me before. I'm currently struggling to get something near the B area and all of a sudden I get something right! And I am rewarded with a grade that could lift my final grade in the end! *flabbergasted*

But normally, I'm not even close to being that lucky. Even worse, I'm in huge trouble when it comes to learning. Maybe because I often procrastinate in such extreme ways, that I totally forget about the exams all along. But when I realize that there is something that I should put some effort into ALTHOUGH there is not enough time, I get into a process of distraction and surrender. You could almost see it as the already stated "Kübler-Ross model".


-Denial: I can do this. I passed through other exams without learning, too. Don't stress yourself, Max. Everything will be fine.

-Anger: OHMYF*CKINGGOD, why is everone and everything getting on my nerves?!? I want to hurt someone. I want to punch a child - no, even better, I want to make an ugly baby cry tears of fear! This little spawn of Satan needs to shit its pants or I'll never get to rest!!!
-Bargaining: Oookay, I get it, I need to study. Well, dear God (or whatever you want to be called, you weird, big thing of hope above the clouds), if you let me pass this damn exam, I SWEAR I'll always learn before the upcoming exams. Like, yeah. So....Please, God-thingy, pleaaase!? :3

-Depression: Man, I'm so stupid. Nobody likes me, that's how stupid I am. They only consider me as a "friend" because they are compassionate and can't leave a stupid soul like mine alone in the dark with my stupidness... stupidity... studidosia... ARGH!

-Acceptance: Well, fine. Max.... think about the 5 G's you've recently learned from a drag queen ("Good God, Get a Grip, Guuurrrrl!" *fingersnap*) .. You can do this. Chaka!

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So why am I listing these thoughts on my way of handling complicated situations of my life that have the potential to ruin my future? Well, tomorrow, I have something that you could call an aptitude/qualification test that I need for changing my minor field of study. So many things that are going through my head... So many things that depend on me passing this test...

... and so many new songs in my library that I want to show you. Let's use them as a way to calm me down, okay? :S
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The more I think about all the songs that recently found their way on my mp3-player, the more I notice that there is actually only one artist/band I want to show you.
Alt-J
(aka "∆")
After downloading their Album "An Awesome Wave" I completely blinded out all the other tracks and just listened to Alt-J's songs.. They remind me of something that Hercules And Love Affair did a while ago, which already is a good thing. The songs are different enough to intrique you while keeping the "hearability" to make you listen to it over and over and over and over and [...] over again. I hope you (can) enjoy them as much as I do :]

Alt-J - Tessellate (click here for the video)


Alt-J - Tessellate (Black Box Remix)


Alt-J - Breezeblocks


Alt-J - Breezeblocks (Christoph Skirl Remix)


Okay... I think I should go to bed now, get some sleep and ROCK the test tomorrow.
Wish me luck!!

Greetings
~Maximiwax'*

2012/07/04

What I ACTUALLY wanted to do...

--- A post on weird new trends which I do not understand ---

...sth with pictures like these that show stuff I see at my university and in the city thinking "what the fuuuu..."

1)Guys with undercuts... like, really? It's cool now, yeah, but just a modified ->version of the 90's that everybody hates now with joy!

2)Weird bags with hand-drawn things on them... We get it, either you are creative or you've got a creative friend or not even that - you've actually spent money on a blank piece of fabric (that can barely hold stuff) with super meaningful/funny/cute things on it. SO cool!

3)Every, and I mean EVERY picture of you makes use of the instagram filter? You've spent 2 hours to make your hair look like you just got out of bed? You stand there like in a weird dream-like shroom dance / about to collapse / looking down, which is supposed to be cute or whatnot / having a posture like a withered leaf? Congratz, you've accomplished the "douchy hipster"-look! :]

... but maybe someone would find this offensive ...


--- A post about my personal life ---

...sth about my non-existing love-life or a word that describes everything in short: FRIEND-ZONE.
About people that are interested in me (for some strange reason) but where the personalities just don't click; about someone, who says he wants more without realizing what he did in the past; about others that I dream of, that I think about daily and who inspire and amaze me - but who do not seem to have this kind of affection towards me.
Or about my life at university, the imaginary pressure of seminars and exams, the interestingly weird conversations I have with people at the cafeteria, about friends who can relate to the pseudo-stress and the ones, who really work their butts off.

... but, naaaah. Who wants to read that? (=serious question! send me a message via facebook about what you wanna see on this blog or things that could improve - the link is at the end of this post!)


--- A post about music ---

...okay. This one is manageable. So let's do this!
My weird monster-"sansa"-creation seems to work. It really does. It does play music and so I don't need to buy a new mp3player with money that I don't have (or want to spend on other things like food, booze and t-shirts). These are some of the latest additions to my "music library"...Enjoy!



Chikinki - Bitte Bitte

Another track a good friend showed me. Since I'm from Germany, I enjoy the little story that is described and the use of the word "Bitte" :] gives it a nice touch..

Maximo Park - Write This Down

I know: SHOCKER! ... I heard this one on the radio (the radioooo!! :O) and instantly liked it. So when I heard it for the 3rd or 4th time, I thought "Argh, f*ck it, mainstream or not, I have to have it!!" -- And so I downloaded the whole Maximo Park album. Which turned out to be really good! Definitely a very catchy song and I really like the change of tempo and rhythm in it.

Destiny's Child - Say My Name (Cyril Hahn Remix)

Did you read the interpret's name and went "Wait, WHAT?" ? :D Well, I did, when it popped up as one of the most favorited songs on hypem. But maybe you enjoy it as much as I do. The mix of the distorted vocals and the Carribean sound in the background really works for me.

Pablo Nouvelle - Is It Ok (feat. Fiona Daniel)

Except for the last few lines, this song kind of implies what I wanted to say to a certain person for the last few months. ... ... Apart from that, it impresses by its really strong message and of course Daniel's beautiful voice!

So... in the end, I did one of the things I wanted to do. More or less 1/3. I'm satisfied :)
Enjoy the rest of the week, guys!
~Maximiwax'*

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